"lights"

It has been so long my eyes was blinded..and now gradually its open and I saw the light at the end of the tunnel..seems to wave at me..ask me to come closer. Thanks God for giving me chance to change... What makes me change.?? me myself wondering why..But so far, I feel relief and tranquil.My parents stating their gratitude..when I said to them I have changed. I think, somebody had really made me realized the importance of "bla"...Tomorrow I'm going to have bio quiz..an open book quiz.

Soon after I had changed..in detailed..Last module in my faculty..they tried to emphasized about courtesy, politeness, bla2..to students..in contrast they portrayed the mirror image of what they tried to stress. What do they think they are?? Don't they know how to smile...or how to show some respect although we are students. I'm not saying all of them..but its the common matter emerged each time event was conducted. What a shame..

Despite all, I hope that I'll maintain and strive more for my betterment..I sick of minding people think about me...they just no exist..or maybe I have to take them as my stimuli. haha..peace

no mood

argh..no mood to study at moment..hate it..

why???...

twisted thinking..

tense...

remember the responsibility..get up..back on track..

k..daa..want to continue studying although at saturated state,..wee..

headache

cold weather, rainy..absolute conducive to rest and relax ..I wish I can enjoy my weekends better than this...this is referring to my condition now..in which tomorrow is going to be the first test in my Deg. in Biomol..test on gene expression..said to be killer subject for this semester..teaches by superb lecturer..haha..he is going to be placed on my favourite lecturer list next to Dr. Hana..in this case Dr. Saifulaman..proud to be his student...I've been informed that he is an Oxford alumni..wah..not easy to get through into that prestigious and prominent university on earth..and it said to be first malay man who graduated from that University..I googled up his details..come out with numerous searches..he also a head for the biotechnology department uitm Malaysia..and his research on bone cells have been brought to further research by our national cosmonaut to the outer space ..bla3..back to the prime reason I write this blog because..the tense I'm feeling now, I can't give my full concentration towards my study..I review and revise quite number of times..still cannot understand the notes trying to convey...to relief my tense..that is why I'm now writing this blog..k r..need to go for prayer...chaiyok2..bless be with me..InsyaAllah..peace.

%&&*$%$#

after a period of time..me silencing myself not to write and even seldom updating my status in facebook. I'm now writing this post..just want to attempt reactivating my mood in writing. I am so fail in writing..I forgot many of basic formats, committed numbers of grammatical errors..I'm sorry for that..but this is just a blog..not a formal place..where every single alphabet is taking for details..no spelling error..bla2..no such thing in blog.. I can write in many ways as I wish..as long as I feel satisfy..plus, I believe not many people will pay their visit to my blog..haha.
New Year 2010..my friends and I have a splendid moment...I was seemed to be exorcised by NEW YEAR SPIRIT..dance like hell..nah..joking..I followed the beats and the crowd was damn cool..previous year I celebrated it at The Curve..then this year I made a slight change on the venue..haha..Pavilion..the Glamorous place in KL..located nearby StarHill Gallery...a Mecca for tycoons and fashionistas..

new year is coming up...

New Year 2010..I'm eagerly await to enter into the new year as well as brings me along with a new resolution...my new year resolution..em..let me think..haha..maybe I may not mention here because it ashame me..but thing for sure..I'm looking forward to pursue my study in Biomolecular Science..hopefully, I'll be able to excel throughout the programme duration..the duration might be shorter due to credit transfer..Therefore, I'll hold my degree in shorter period..my parent..supported me to do not stop until degree...maybe by then I'll go for master and so forth..hopefully I can fulfil my parent dream..haha..
Talk about new year..i've planned with my cayunk to celebrate New Year together..but.we still blur..where to head..which place is the best spot to enjoy the momentous night..tomorrow is my dad birthday..I haven't prepared any of gift..due to me myself have insufficient money..we might celebrate in more moderate way..less than usual maybe..best part about my dad..he don't actually bother about...gift, celebration..most important thing is remembering..maybe I am inherit his attitude..

burfday

wee...~~i'm so excited..happy, bla2.thanks sangat pada kwn2 yg celebrate my burfday awal pagi tadi..i'm having a great fun..haha..thanks to my cayunk..love u so much..my email and text msgs full with wishes..i'm so appreciate it..thanks for remembering..My God bless you all..a profuse thanks must go to my mum..for delivering me into this world..haha..love you mum so much..and dad..thanks for the wish also..second celebration would be tonight..this time with family..em..happy birthday also to my eldest brother..wish you for longevity and prosperity..huhu..peace

Tick tock

time is ticking..tomorrow is my birthday. My eldest bro and I share the same date except for the year and time we born. I was born at 5 something in evening..a premature baby..and surely I was damn small. My weight was about a kilogram..haha. I hope tomorrow will be my day. which I hope, I will enjoy myself so much. I am now sitting on a couch writing this blog , alone in a house..my friend says..he'll come over to celebrate my birthday tonight. My mum and sis go to KL..to attend wedding reception. haha..what's my plan eh for tonight?? em..i'm thinking of watching my favourite film maker last film..Muallaf..I love her films so much..

Eid Adha

Actually,I've run out of ideas to put into my blog..while I'm browsing my pictures folder..I've found a momentous pictures ..for God sake..I never celebrated Raya at Ampang with my grandma before.So I would attach some pictures..showing the joyness celebrating raya with my biological grandma.

trust

trust and sincerity is the crucial part in a relationship, I believe everybody agrees with me. Why M is always question my sincerity, I know my own limits..and M should know M own limits..M frequently struck a wild thinking on my mind..seems to cover something behind me..I hope this relationship will long last..M keep saying , trust me, believe me..but the situation seems not allowing me to accept M words. To many things likely to appear gradually. If M really a trusted person, show me God..and vice versa.Month after we've declared I enjoyed myself so much. Lately, each time I went out with M, my tears seems becoming cheap.Seriously, I hardly cry, but M really made me mad. I love you so much, thank you for what you've done to me..I'm so appreciate it. I only hope you can be the one I can trust the most, and the one I can express my love and care..sorry because I hardly express my love, but I want you to bare in mind..I only love you..no one able to replace..as long you treat me same as I treated you..no cheating..please remember NO CHEATING..I hate a liar..If you don't do all the stupid thing..you may ignore what I mentioned above..peace

jalan jalan kat kl

huhu. saya dan keluarga baru pulang dari kl..em..g umah nenek di ampang..haha..so many things happened..but mostly ok la..huhu...nak citer dari mule..mls plak..tp several most memorable scenes..mostlikely when my cousins and i went for jalan2...haha..we planned to watch new moon..tp mase kiteorng dtg..most of the shows were at midnight..so..we cancelled..jln2 kat around the curve..one utama..huhu..for me..it's fine..but for 2 of my cousins who wore heels..hahax..kesian gler kat dorang...after jln2..lapar plak tibe2..so kiteorng ade idea yang x tau nak dikatakan bernas atau x..kiteorng g umah aunty yang dekat ngan o.u..kat mutiara damansara..kiteorng bg la msg..tp die x reply..so kiteorng just pegi sajer..sesampai nyer kat dpn umah aunty..huhu..sedey..my aunty and uncle were absent..they went out.yang ade bibik..kucing, iguana nd byk lg bende..huhu..sedey..so kiteorng pown ngan perut yang lapar tu./terus bertukar haluan..ngat kan nak mkn umah aunty je..save skit kan....so..tibe2 ade sorang volunteer nak belanja kiteorng..huhu..my cousin's bf..so..die yang belanja kiteorng kat hartamas square..then..mase raya haji..haha...saya pergi sembahyang raye..cam x cayer je..huhu..x pe arr..teman nenek tercinta..huhu..ade jamuan skit kat luar..tp mls la nak mkn..kat umah nenek.ramai giler yang datang..besh la..petang tu..kiteorng dah plan nak g tgk wayang kat galaxy ampang..mase pegi tu..my aunty antar...kiteorng tgk...twilight saga..huhu..akhirnyer..tempat tu agak merunsingkan..takut maa...we ngat kan nak g pavillion ker..or klcc..but ini tempat yang paling dekat ngan umah nenek..just imagine..kiteorng mlm2 blk jalan kaki dari galaxy ke umah nenek..nasib baik ade short cut..actually bley call my dad..cuz i dad is around..but i sajer nak jalan ramai2 ngan cousins lain..sampai je umah..mkn..and boom terus tido..huhu..

Packing

I'm now preparing stuff to pack into my luggage..I gave my mum stack of clothes, 2 boxes of toiletries and other necessary stuffs. I don't have any idea what to wear...my cousins are just different..they do have quite numbers be..of clothes..i think..I'm going to be defeated..maybe in a week they will buy 2 or 3 pairs of clothes..huhu..Therefore..i think..i should buy new clothes either..maybe soon..in KL..yeah.!! I love shopping in One Utama..so many gorgeous apparel stores..huhu..it's a shopping heaven..a mecca for fashionista..maybe..i'm not included..and maybe also yes..huhu...Unfortunate news..is we have to go by bus..because my dad working..then next week he'll fetch us..my grandma..going to wait at Puduraya..wah..so long i haven't step my feet at Pudu..I heard..it has undergo several renovation..which cost quite loads of expenses..yeah..peace

Christmas @ New Year at Mutiara Damasara

huhu..i'm actually planning to go to the curve mutiara damansara on christmas and new year for watching a big performances backgrounded with dark skies with glimpse of moon shines...huhu..a fireworks performances..if I got time..or buddy to hang out with..I coudn't resist the temptation to watch those kind of performances as well stage performances..i'ts going to be a big party..I always participate it before..but i'm uncertain for this time..because my soulmate will be in Singapore..some unsettled matters to be handled..em..so..a major possibilities i'll be with my cousins..hopefully my mate will settle those things earlier..so we can hang out together having quality time..my previous memories when I used to attended the same festive last year New Year 2009..remain fresh..and I stil l remember my friend and I watched Bedtime Stories at Cathay Cineleisure Damansara..that movie ended at 11.30pm...then we got 3o minutes to go to the main square..near the stage..prepare ourselves with couples of snow spray..when the time came..we screamed like hell at the mean time spraying people around us..at that time..no matter who you are..we feel so close together..no more stress appeared.. before we came back..we bought Mc Donald..i have my McD porridge..wait the traffic to relief then we back..I arrived at home at about 4 or 5am..took my shower..then..boom..sleep well..so..so..great..huhu..anyone volunteer to accompany me, just text me..peace..

funny

huhu..my dad called me just now..he says regarding the degree course..i've informed him before that i'm not recruited for this dec intake..and he was silent and wondering why..huhu..me either...then he called several influenced people..asking how to do..and what to do..yeah..i'm his only hope..he concerns about me so much..my uncle said, we have to call the faculty..maybe the result haven't come out..I tried to reach several friends..they said the result come out at 3rd week of december..what!! I have misunderstood the situation..now i'm releasing my relief sigh..I thought of changing the course..because previous chosen course was a random pick..without precise thinking..I hope..i will be one of the lucky person who will be recruited for the students intake..i'm not ready yet to thread onto working arena..love my parents so much...nothing more worth than you both..God bless my family..peace

i'm back..

after quite a long period of time..i'm back writing my blog...i just don't have brilliant ideas to talk about..but what makes me come back is because of yesterday my friend wants me to update my blog..em..nothing much interesting occured in the very recent days..except ..huhu..my mum gave me pile of cash to buy a brand new hp..i was like..what!! are you sure..actually i have talk about this particular hp before to her..and i don't expect she going to take it seriously..then she said..she agreed to give me some money...i cost me bla2..i bought my hp with my newly met friend..he is so good at bargainning stuff..huhu..we got quite much less than its actual price..hehe..now.. i'm owned a windows mobile handphone...my dream hp actually is a blackberry..but it's ok..maybe the features is much better..because with addition of video call, gps navigator, wifi, bla2..thank you so much mum...huhu..now i can read my notes straight away from my pocket pc..huhu...tommorow, we are going to KL..visit my grandparents..who live in damansara and my biological grandma in ampang..muet exam last day...em..i feel so bad..i'm totally not satisfied with what have i did..it sucks...my ideas just stop..and i was blank..haha..let it go...don't want to mess up my mind with those thinking anymore..but i'm hoping for the nice looking result..peace..

Its bloom again

Huhu..I just can't believe I got fell in love again..I thought of vanishing the word LOVE in my life vocabulory..suddenly.it seems been highlighted and filling this lonely heart..peace

Friendship..

"F” is for Fun…………That friends share when they are together.

“R” is for Reliability….A true friend is someone that you can always
rely on.

“I” is for Interest…….Someone who is genuinely interested in you,
your fears, joys, and life.

“E” is for Energy………They pick you up when you are down, and give
you the energy to go on and believe in yourself.

“N” is for Nothing……..Nothing is ever too much, no matter what time
it is, night or day.

“D” is for Distance…….Although the miles may separate you, a true
friend is never far away.

“S” is for Secrets……..Your feelings and personal/private thoughts
that you can only share with a friend.

“H” is for Happiness……The way I feel when we are together.

“I” is for Inseparable….Through good times and bad, tears and
laughter. A friend will always be there for you.

“P” is for Perfect……..The friendship is to make both perfect..which both compliment each other and accept what it is.

Summon

I summon my mood to come back being an active blog writer..not much significant moment to tell within the gaps..the only memorable scene would be when I sat for MUET oral test which due on last Wednesday at Malacca High School. It was totally out of my expectation, I thought it would be few candidates and the candidates would around my age. What shocking me, some of them were eligible to address as uncle or aunt. Generally, I have a great fun meeting new people, polishing my communication skill as well as enhancing my self-esteem. I got another 3 tests on go..reading..writing..and listening..A matter of concern for me is writing..It takes me quite long time I haven't check out for essay book. I almost forgot all the necessary formats to write letters, reports etc.Em okay.....daa..peace

Here I come

I'm tirelessly preparing myself for the MUET examination which is due tomorrow. I made up my mind, whatever happen I have to go through this, unless I died before the examination begin. Huhuk..hopefully not..sins overweight my deeds..and for sure I'm not ready to meet the Divine God..I need His bless...for me to confront all these things..I have made a full rehearsal in my room in front of the magic mirror..Tomorrow attire would be:... a blue stripes long sleeve clothes by padini authentic , skinny jeans by A X.. tie by People, shoe by Nike..and bag by rushai leather...thanks for the sponsors ..ceh..no lah..thanks to my beloved ayah.Unfortunately, i'm not able to upload my pic..because of this crap connection...peace

Malaysia Day

I watch Buletin Utama just now, and what catch my attention is the declaration of 16Th September as a public holiday. It is a great approach made by the government under the administration of a brilliant Prime Minister..After this, people priority to youngsters will know what had happen on 16Th of September 1963, where peninsula Malaysia combined with Sabah and Sarawak made up a Malaysian federation. A momentous date that should be always in Malaysians' mind. I love Malaysia, I love my country..Peace

huk..huk...

boring nyer..why boredom always haunting me...last night activity was read old magazines..flipping thru page by page of old magazines was kind of interesting. Check out for the trends, style.. because the trend and style is cycling..old trend comes back and new trend fades away..I am a full timer critic for my family, especially on my mum appearance..she always seeks for my advice in apparel choosing, cosmetics products,bags,stilleto,shoes and whatsoever...huhu..peace